Wednesday, October 13, 2010

losing my marbles

You may have noticed, (or maybe not!), my post being very few and far between. I could attribute that to a busy life, but the fact of the matter is, it's not that I haven't had time to blog. It is, in fact, due to some strange things going on with myself that I've begun to take a bit more notice of and start investigating. Things like, I have these great ideas for blog posts...just quick little snippet kinds of things...but then when I have a minute to blog, I can't remember for the life of me what topic I had thought of. I mean, even after just a few minutes, I can't remember at all! And when I do sit down to try to think of anything, I feel like my mind is a blank. It's so bad that I can't even recall common phrases (like, it took me a minute to think of 'few and far between' above - and it still doesn't sound right to me - even though I know that's what my mind was searching for). I normally love words, and love talking, and love this format because, even if no one is listening (reading), I don't actually SEE people being disinterested and I am quite happy to fool myself into thinking that someone is tuning in here. But of late, words just completely escape me. Literally....I feel like I can't think of words, let alone fun or witty ways of saying anything.

I also have little to no drive most days to do any kind of creative...anything. Projects, church stuff, you name it...if it involves thinking, count me out. Even my to-do lists and menu have been challenging! Many days now, after getting the kids off to school, I come back into the house and feel like I absolutely know I should be doing something, several somethings, in fact, but just can't come up with what! It's bizarre. On more than a few occasions, I just putter around all morning til it's time to pick Luke up (which is prime "git 'er done!" time!!) and feel like I accomplished nothing! Then, of course, the minute my head hits the pillow at night, I usually think of about 10 things that I had wanted to do.

I have no real answer for any of this. I guess it could be attributed to a change of season in life, with my last kiddo off to school, and I'm just still in an 'adjusting' phase. Or maybe it could be hormonal. Or maybe I have too much swirling around in my head. Or maybe I'm just plain 'ol losing my marbles. I dunno, but I've decided it's time to take some sort of action, so here's my plan. I'm resorting to carrying around a little notebook, and every time I have a thought or idea I'm going to try to write it down. Even when I had the idea to do this, I went in the bedroom to get a notebook, and by the time I got there, I had gotten distracted and did 2 different things before I remembered what I went in there for! So, I'm going to attempt to remember to write down all the stuff I need to remember!

So, if you tell me anything an event or date or time...that I must keep track of, please tell me to write it down, and have mercy on me if I forget. I have, several times, given people completely blank stares when they say things like "See you tomorrow!" or "Can you bring along such and such to so-and-so event?" That's not good. No one likes a blank stare, I know. It's alarming, and makes you feel like the person isn't interested. I assure you, if you are the recipient of one of these looks, I am interested, I'm just not all there right now. I'm working on it. And if this gets really bad and you ever see me wandering around a parking lot or lost along side the road, would you please return me home? Thanks. :)

And now, I am off to clean ceiling fan blades...something I forgotten for so long that my dear husband commented last week how he's kind of liking the 'two-tone look' of the fan...which, is white with black all around the edges! Ewww... *sigh*

1 comment:

Laura said...

.... I'm so there! I believe it is called "momnesia" :) google it.