Do you ever have trouble stopping the swirl of thoughts, ideas and emotions in your head? I do. Especially when I have lots to do, and decisions to make. I feel as though something is hanging over my head.
Right now there are lots of changes going on for us, including moving our Sunday Celebration service to a different location (and learning what that all will look like and mean for us), Seth asking (pleading, in fact) to go to school next year, and not the least of, being my hubby returning to his old job full time (which means a minimum of 40 hours, usually a bit over 40 in addition to what amounts to about 5 hours drive time to and from work weekly). Yeah, that would be in addition to pastoring. And yet, I believe it's where God is taking us right now. That I do have peace about.
But all of these changes has made me take a look at my life, my schedule, and my priorities. Somehow I feel like there are several things that I want to do, can do, am supposed to do...and yet I seem to have trouble keeping all of them going - and going well - all at the same time. People have said to me "I don't know how you do it all...", and to be perfectly honest, I don't either, and most of the time, I think, in reality, I'm NOT doing it all - or at least not doing it well. It seems like I can focus on being homemaker, and I can clean and organize, and make good meals...but school doesn't get done. Or I focus totally on school with all the kids every day, and by the end of the week the house looks like a bomb went off, and I haven't done any of the church stuff that I want to get taken care of. Or I can focus on the church responsibilities and ideas I have, but school gets my half-attention and we eat...well, whatever I can come up with in 10 minutes or left - like hot dogs, pancakes and spaghetti - or pizza. It frustrates me to no-end that I can't seem to get a rhythm to life where I can keep all the plates spinning at the same time!
So right now I think I've got to enter a season of serious prayer about what God is calling me to do. Yes, there are a million things I could do, but what is He saying that He wants me to do. Otherwise, I'll burn out myself, my family and have nothing to offer anyone. And I'm pretty sure that's NOT His plan.
So, if you think of it, I could use a few prayers for clarity, grace and...well, some good organizational skills would be helpful too! :)