However, I will admit how surprised I am that I'm actually not HATING this as much as I anticipated!! (Please note the difference between 'enjoying' and 'not hating'...there is one). And I'm finding myself things that I never did, and vowed I never would...like running...and eating plain yogurt (with fruit in it...baby steps, people, baby steps). Yep, crazy... Don't get me wrong, it's not like I've gone all crunchy and health-nutty. I am basically only logging about 2 miles per day...I run *most* of the first mile (I'm too lazy to run the uphills) and walk the second mile.
accountability partner who has walked the road before me, and shares her ups, downs and nuggets of wisdom with me along the way.
Yes, it's true, I barely recognize myself these days. Definitely not because I look all that different, but because I'm making fun of my 'healthy' friends less and agreeing with them more...(agh!)...and doing odd domestic-y things like trying to make my own granola (on my list for this week) and bizarre behaviors like passing up junk food on a regular basis. What the...????
I have thought about what has been my main motivation for this... It's hard to pinpoint...maybe jealousy of hearing every.single.person. we see gush about how great my husband looks...maybe it's the fact that I wanted new clothes...maybe it's because I'm turning 40 on my next birthday... Yep, it's all of those lame, selfish things. Hey...I didn't say I had a complete personality transplant, OK? Don't judge me... :)