Tuesday, April 12, 2011
tripping over mental hurdles
The jobs that I do...managing a household, leading a church, etc., all require things of me that are not always things that are visibly productive. I have a raging battle internally to make myself believe this is okay...and even good. That it is good for me to take the time to do these things...quite possibly even more important (dare I say?!?) than the more visible things on my to-do list like scrubbing and cleaning. I even battled this same thing when my kids were smaller, feeling bad about taking time to just sit and read with them or play, even though I knew those were good things, because there were piles of laundry and dishes to be done. I think that we live in such a results-driven world that anything short of produce, produce, produce leaves me feeling like I'm a lazy bum. But really, growing, cultivating and enriching should be priority. So why is it so hard for me to believe this in my core?
Do you have any similar kinds of mental hurdles? What are yours?